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When I was younger, patience was a word and a feeling I rarely had or used, But through Allah’s Mercy, patience and sabr became my way. This dunya was full of play, an illusion as they may say, easy to make one fall astray. There are times when I feel I am falling, the hole seems so deep, so steep, like there is no way out, but if there is one thing that would break all barriers it will be sabr and contentment. O Allah make me amongst the As-Sabirun, for I am weak without your mercy. Each and every day I feel like I can’t go on, you test me only to make me strong, but everything seems to go wrong. O Allah I realised that you test the ones you love most dear for your love is unconditional and it is the only thing I want. O Allah as I grow with each day, please lead me in the right way, through sabr and contentment allow me the ability to remain strong so that nothing else could go wrong.

My heart feels some anxiety and pain; I cannot shake this feeling of restlessness like my heart is slowly tearing apart. My mind is not connected to my heart the thoughts I have do not relate to my heart, the thoughts I have create my insecurities, yet my heart stays pure. I make dua to Allah that he grants me the ability to connect the two, so I can find rest in everything I do. Where do I begin to describe the way I’m feeling like life has no meaning, when I’m at my lowest I feel like I’m caged in and I cannot get out, the tears flow from my eyes, my knees on the ground my hand pounding on my heart, wishing and praying that Allah will ease this test, but everything feels a mess. Where do I begin to describe this restlessness, how can I say how I feel.

O Allah my good deeds are but a few my bad deeds pile up make me realise what is true an just. O Allah descend your Raghmah upon me make me into the person that is truly me. I raise my hands up to make dua to praise you only to give me shafa. O Allah do not abandon me give me guidance by thy will make me whole and fill my soul, from today i will prove to thee that love for thee is what I possess in me. O Allah keep shaitaan away from me make me see that he is not for me, shadow me against his evil ways lead me in the right way. O Allah I stand in prayer worshipping thee in my time of need eradicating the last sin in me to uplift my soul to the highest decree to make me see that this is truly me. I may struggle and fall and fail a test but I will pick myself up so I can conquer the quest to earn thy pleasure is my request.

I am a writer of islamic poetry and here is one from many that i have written. Inshallah Sometimes I feel like I can’t go on But Allah most high keeps me strong. Tests are thrown at me from all direction, but I know with that comes great connection. People may hurt me or at least they will try but sabr alone is the highest virtue. My good deeds may be few and my bad deeds may be high, but it is never late to repent or to cry. If I feel like I can’t go on and the tests seem unbearable I put up my hands and pray, for Allah alone is most merciful.

The world is changing daily and many muslims find it difficult to adjust to the way of life in the country they are living in, i recently listened to a very profound lecture about the 4 fundamentals and how if we implement them properly our muslim community will be rock solid. You may be living in a country where you have freedom of religion, but some countries do not offer this, that is why we need to strengthen our communities. Lecture given by Nouman Alli Khan- Founder of Bayyinah 1) Quran - Learn it properly, the deep meaning, the more you study Quran the more open minded you will become. The Quran makes you more intellectual and it is incredibly spiritual. 2) Salaah- When you have a healthy relationship witth the Quran, Salaah gives you the opportunity to refresh our faith everytime, when Salah is not connecting you to the Quran, then nothing will connect you. when our salaah is empty our deen is empty. Salaah helps to maintain many things 1) the state of the Ummah - if the Salaah is good the whole thing is good, the heart of Salaah is to connect to the word of Allah to have a deep relationship. and therefore helps to fix the problem of the Ummah. 2) Emaan- if Salaah is good Emaan is good. 3) Thikr - The reminder of Allah is through Thikr. 3) Jumuah- Salatul Jumuah- it is the convention of muslims every week. it gives us the opportunity no other Ummah has, to connect even though most baddest people to Allahs book, each friday no matter what every muslim attends Jumuah, christians have church every sunday, but if a person is not that religous they wont go to church. but Jumuah to the muslims is a sacred day and no matter how low their faith may be at the time, its still a day they attend. 4) Study of the Seerah of the Prophet (SAW)- when you study the life of our Prophet (SAW) you will get a sense of identity connecting us to his legacy. These are basic fundamentals that we all should know about, and if we have neglected them, once we strengthen it, our communities our Ummah will be strengthend. We are living in a westernized world, and the temptations and desires can distract us, we may have the most learned scholars etc, but if you are not doing your part as an individual, then how can we become one community, or one ummah.

What does NOT Constitute HIJAAB 1) When your Hijaab is see through 2)When its half on your head and half not 3)When its on, but your fringe is showing 4)When your covered, but your ears are showing 5)When your Hijaab is on, but your wearing Skin Tight clothes 6)When you think Hijaab is just the covering of the hair. THESE ARE FACTORS THAT ARE CERTAINLY NOT HIJAABI